Feelings

Today's mood...abashed. Do you think they make a mood ring for that?

ABASH: presupposes some initial self-confidence that receives a sudden check, producing shyness, shame, or a feeling of inferiority.

Well, that just summed up 4.5 years of college. And the resulting GPA. Oh yeah, and how about my SAT scores? I really wonder some times how the heck I got into college, much less graduated. Because I majored in partying. Not Accounting. Interesting to note that I do believe I have a knack for accounting. Go figure. And who knew, a mere 15 years later. And let's not discuss GMAT. I don't "do" standardized testing apparently. But give me an essay and I'll wow your socks off with all the useless info I have retained in the noggin.

This all started with my application to the Baylor Executive MBA program. And that feeling of abashedness I have when I feel unworthy to grace the academia of those who made better grades than I did. So, the decidedly pointed question that sent me over the edge: What was your GPA? I feel nauseous. AND, not only that question, but I get to detail each and every class that was my major, and list its corresponding GPA grade. oh.my.god.kill.me.now. Like I want to relive any of this.

OH - and the funniest part of all this? Is my knack for keeping all things that may be important in the future...the original application dated 1999 for the Univ. of TX MBA. I found "THE ESSAY". Steph, do you remember helping me with this? Suffice it say that it didn't get any better reading these past 7 years. AND, I have 3 essays to write, transcribe, and emote for my BU application. God help me.

Just wish me luck.